As anyone who follows me on Twitter knows, I’ve been in a constant rage since the election was stolen from Hillary Clinton in 2016 when Putin installed his vicious clown traitor, Donald Trump. I’ve cut everyone out of my life who didn’t vote for Hillary and now—outside of work, my life consists of reading, writing, music, and movies (and of course, my daughter and kitties).
Usually, I can allow myself to stop thinking when I watch a movie or TV or read a book. These activities give me a couple of hours away from the nightmare that is now America. After a day at work, where most of my co-workers gladly show their MAGA pride, I need more than a little decompression. Riding home, I always have a podcast or Audible book available. Sometimes I opt for music, but I like to get completely lost in music and it’s not wise to do this while driving.
When I get home, my daughter and I meet in my bedroom to discuss the nightmare news of the day. We always do our best to inject some light into our discussions by also talking about what we consider the good things in life: paneer masala, makeup, kitties, poetry, spicy Chinese dumplings, rain (which we sooooooo miss living in the desert), what’s new on Netflix, and more. We recommend books we’ve read to each other and discuss what movies we want to see. At some point, all of the many cats we’ve saved we’ll find their way into my room and no matter how bad America In Her Sunken Place has made us feel, our furry babies will elicit a smile or two.
But there’s always this underlying horror that nothing matters anymore. White supremacists and the very-wealthy Right are firmly in charge. Even if by some miracle, Trump gets impeached, tried, and evicted from office, we’re left with Pence, who is every white man from The Handmaid’s Tale.
Monday night, I was just feeling so dejected about all that is happening in the world that after watching The Rachel Maddow show, I decided to watch the first episode of Code Black via On Demand. I hadn’t yet been able to catch any of the new season, so I settled in to watch the first episode, thinking that I could forget about what’s going on in the big bad outside for at least an hour.
Season three opens with “Mama” introducing the new-year residents to Angels Memorial Emergency Room, which is the busiest ER in America. One of the new residents is a young African-American woman named Pepper, who unceremoniously vomits when things get harried and gross. Later, Pepper accidentally inhales fentanyl and passes out. She has to be brought back a couple of times and when she’s finally brought back for good, one of the doctors asks Pepper what year it is and she answers, “2018.” When she’s then asked who the President is, she responds to the male doctor, “Hillary!”
The look of anger Pepper gives the doctor encompassed exactly how I feel every day as I watch people of color being called “rapists” or “animals” even as they have to continue traversing a world that refuses to see them as people no different than anyone else. I’m angered that women continue to have to fight for their rights, as well as people of color and the LGBTQI community. Workers’ rights are being taken away. People living with disabilities are being assaulted. Trump and his Republican sycophants are doing their best to destroy the Affordable Care Act. Trump has harmed our country’s relations with its global partners and he threatens war. And now immigrant children are being torn away from their families at our country’s border.
However, even as tired as I am—and I know millions of other people feel the same, we have to pay attention to the good and keep our voices raised. Below is a poem Chelsea Clinton tweeted, written by Norel McAdoo and then read at his Little Rock Central High baccalaureate.
We must heed McAdoo’s advice and remain vocal! We can never give up or give in, no matter how tired we are. However, I will say that we all need to take care of ourselves. Whatever your regime of self-care is, be diligent about it. Meditate, walk, listen to soothing music, take bubble baths—do what you have to so that you can remain healthy and keep up our #resistance work!